A beautiful lie

Mere Dil Se

2010-11-04T22:51:00.003+08:00

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Goodbye love

2010-10-11T17:15:00.003+08:00

"Don't mean to leave you behind , it's the fuel "-Shell

I've ditch blogspot for a more incredible way of blogging , tumblr .

Catch up with me at ; -Head Above Water(click here)

Yours truly

2010-10-09T19:51:00.003+08:00

DO YOU REALIZE . . . . .

All these while when we complain so about the things we don't have
We don't appreciate the things we have

So maybe ,
You should start looking at things differently
and maybe ,
For once , appreciate life .

Life is amazing
If YOU think it's amazing

I don't know why but i had the strong feeling to write this , maybe it's cause i'm so happy today (:
Of course occasionally life suck , but still .
It's not to prevent yourself from falling
The most amazing thing is to rise every single time you fall .

-i love you-

Yours truly ,
Ginny .

The happy ending

2010-10-09T18:50:00.002+08:00

Random pictures i'm suppose to upload long time ago , hahaha .
Enjoy! :D

"Happy Saturday , folks !"

2010-10-08T14:33:00.003+08:00

Technically , PMR is exactly over .
That 's all i could say about it now .
Subject close .

Maybe when the world wasn't so harsh
Everything wouldn't went by so fast
The sun no longer greets me in the morning
I could not longer listen to him whisper to me 'I'm sorry'

I caught a glimpse of sunlight somewhere around
But i can't find it no more
I could feel its warmth somewhere around
But i can't feel it no more

-ginny ngai .

Dancing slowly in a room on fire

2010-09-25T20:37:00.003+08:00

I know i'm not suppose to be here , but i need a place to pour my emotions . Sometimes , i just feel so trap inside .Maybe , just maybe . This would be my last time until PMR is over . Sigh .

So today ,

During break , i decided to buy myself a watch when the SBS pepople and I went to the book store .
Actually , i bought it cause it 's spongebob (: It makes me happy to look at the time even though i'm losing time cause's there is a picture of Spongebob smiling . HAHA (: It's awesome .Then i come home , just to find out that my mom got me this 'Crocodile'' watch with a variety of stripes that could easily be changed.It was absolutely beautiful ! It has diamond-like stud around it .
Btw , borrowed Ivan's watch yesterday and then today i think it stopped working ): I'm not sure whether i spoiled it or did it ran out of battery D:

I'm sorry , Ivan ):

Oh yeah , before i forgot i got the Budi Bahasa thing for this month . I'm not sure why , HAHA.
To be frank , i actually fantasise of getting it but never thought that i would get it . I'm kinda nervous although it's just a badge , LOL . It'll be my first time going on stage receiving something.However , i still don't get why i get the badge when all i do in class is sleep . HAHAHA.
(:

The power of sleep

Anyways ,

Good luck everyone for everything especially your exams !

The Word

2010-09-23T14:48:00.003+08:00

credits : deviantart

 Down near the bottom  of the crossed-out list  of things you have to do today,   between "green thread"  and "broccoli" you find  that you have penciled "sunlight."   Resting on the page, the word  is as beautiful, it touches you  as if you had a friend   and sunlight were a present  he had sent you from some place distant  as this morning -- to cheer you up,

and to remind you that,  among your duties, pleasure  is a thing,   that also needs accomplishing  Do you remember?  that time and light are kinds

-Tony Hoagland

I do not trust my ability to describe how i' ve been feeling lately , every now and then i walk around laughing with the dearest people i ever love. It's not something i could type out , it's not something i know . I' m not sure even if empty was the word for it . There are the times when i prefer to sit by the corner and stare at the blank wall as though it's speaking to me through its silence. The voice inside of me is so loud that sometimes i can't hear myself speak. So maybe , i' d walk under sunshine or maybe in the rain just to assure myself that this is no dream , that heat could burn and water could drown . Somehow , it's all the same .

Snips of updates

2010-09-20T22:40:00.002+08:00

So here's the snip ;

Recently my rain is constantly thinking about these few things

Of course , the main this is about PMR . I wake up i think about PMR , before i go to sleep i think of PMR . It's been making me rather edgy . Occasionally i feel secure but mostly not . Ngah . I rather nor think about it .
-I need a distraction from all these stressul thoughts .

Aside from PMR , i need to concentrate on the Librarian Farewell party . The location , time ,date are not confirmed yet but it has nothing to with me . Jia Hui , Teik Yin and i are incharged of the performances. I'm quite thrilled about it . I look forward for a better one this year (:

So then , there's the school genting trip . I'm really really excited about it! I was really hoping i could borrow my Brother's DSLR for that trip , since all the other camera kinda died D: 3 days and two nights !

Next would be the Malacca trip with my dearest girlfriends :D It'd be like a two days one night trip , and we would be going to waterparks and night safarri and just about everything else . Of course , shopping (:

Also there's the Singapore trip , i'm not sure when though -__________- As far as im concerns its on the year end , i don't really look forward for it lah , since we go there quite often but still it's fun travelling !

Not to mention , Wei Jie and i were planning on having this Minda Ceria student trip.
He wanted Sunway Lagoon and i wanted ice skating :/ Somehow , i feel it's quite difficult to organized this trip. There will ALWAYS be someone interruping or something and then you have to look for the transport . The transport is always such an issue -______- then Wei Jie suggested we make good use of Poh's driver . HAHAHAHA.

So i guess i'm done here (:

Love ,
Ginny .

A strange addiction , music .

2010-09-16T21:46:00.003+08:00

Wedding Dress-Taeyang

Bella's lullaby-cherished moments Jon Schmidt

Strings of words

2010-09-16T20:51:00.002+08:00

The feeling of contempted drowing my voice box and i tried so hard to voice out myself . The feeling ignorance rushing through me as i tried so hard to step out your shadow.I could hear the whispers , nevertheless do i care anymore . Swallow me with your ego , crush all of my senses with just one fist , nevertheless do i care anymore . I'm tired .

With just one breath
Hold on to it don't let go

With just one word
Remember it forever

With just one promise
Take my word please

The Day Flies Off Without Me

2010-09-15T10:45:00.000+08:00

"I am still, you move, I am a point of reference on a map,
I am at zero meridian as you consume the longitudes,
The pact we made to read our farewells exactly
at two in the afternoon with you in the air,
holds me like a heavy winter coat.

Your unopened letter is in my pocket, beating."

-John Stammers

Things are the way it is because it is .

Tired

2010-09-13T23:46:00.003+08:00

I can't help but to stop and think for a bit .
It has been making me kind of edgy .
I feel myself screaming from the inside .
Wanting to be free from my self-mental asylum .

Sometimes , i' d just like to sit down and do nothing .
Just so that time would past by and i continue on with life .

I don't really like to think about it but i can't help but think about it.
Besides that , the thought of it always makes me sick in the stomach.
PMR .
I hope you're worth it .

A sister-in-law

2010-09-13T13:40:00.003+08:00

So my brother finally got married :D

[Idky but i like this picture]
My sister-in-law looked like a princess on that day , hahaha .

[And this]

Congratulation to my big brother :D

and i welcome my sister-in-law into our humble family , hahaha.
They registered last Wednesday at the temple on top of the hill .
Ceremony will be beginning of next year , hopefully .

500 days of Summer

2010-09-06T22:40:00.002+08:00

McKenzie: [drunk] So do you have a boyfriend?

Summer: No.

McKenzie: Why not?

Summer: Because I don’t want one.

McKenzie: Come on; I don’t believe that.

Summer: You don’t believe that a woman could enjoy being free and independent?

McKenzie: Are you a lesbian?

Summer: [laughing] No I’m not a lesbian. I just, don’t feel comfortable being anyone’s girlfriend. I don’t actually feel comfortable being anyone’s anything.

McKenzie: I don’t know what you’re talking about.

Summer: Really?

McKenzie: Nope.

Summer: Ok, let me break it down for you–

McKenzie: Break it down!

Summer: Ok. I, like being on my own. I think relationships are messy and people’s feelings get hurt. Who needs it? We’re young, we live in one of the most beautiful cities in the world; might as well have fun while we can and, save the serious stuff for later.

McKenzie: You’re a dude. [to Tom] She’s a dude!

Tom: Ok but wait–wait. What happens, if you fall in love?

[she scoffs]

Tom: What?

Summer: You don’t believe that, do you?

Tom: It’s love, it’s not Santa Claus

-500 days of Summer

Probably like one of the best movies in the world , although i wasn't able to finnish it up due to the retardness of my DVD . I still strongly believe it's a good movie .

I don't know why

2010-09-05T19:47:00.004+08:00

Feel by ~sparkly on deviant ART

"I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell

I know, right now you can't tell

But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see

A different side of me

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired

I know, right now you don't care

But soon enough you're gonna think of me

And how I used to be

Me"-MatchBox 20

As i continued to drag my body against the cold hard floor , my teeth chattered by the cold .

I caught a glimpse of the sunlight somewhere around , but i just can't find it .

I could feel its warmth somewhere around , but i just can't reach out for it .

Happy Holidays

2010-09-04T20:35:00.003+08:00

Happy Holidays , everybody !
On the the last day of school , my friends and i went and hang out at Leisure Mall .
We smiled , we laughed so much that we cried .
Actually , only Li Ming cried lar , lol . She's been doing really often .

We had lunch at McDonalds (:
and we attempted to give a bag of fries to random people but failed
In the end we gave it to Brandon at tuition
We saw him at Secret Recipe with my dad and his brother who is super adorable

We played with nail polish ! (:

See Kee's hubby who does not acknowledge her at all ):

All of us thought that See Kee's mom would be fetching us home but in the end we hop into a bus and i had to talk to an old man if we're on the right track and we laughed and walked under the blazing hot sun until we reached my home (:

To be continued . . . .

The truth

2010-09-04T11:40:00.002+08:00

Dear you-know-who-you-are ,

I'm not sure when are you going to read this , probably when it's too late or maybe never but it doesn't matter as long as you know about it , probably someday . Hopefully . Maybe if you could try putting your life into my shoes , maybe you'll understand . I'd like you to know that i don't love you like how i used to love you yesterday . Yes , i don't love you but i' d like you to know that this is how i treat my guy friends. It's not my body language of holding onto the past , never letting go and not moving forward . What you said yesterday was rather insulting and hurtful . Can you please stop it ? Hadn't you hurt me enough ? Stop being such a jerk . I just thought of friends , you know . Now , i think we shouldn't be friends at all .

Insomnia

2010-09-04T11:33:00.002+08:00

The battle against insomnia has once again began . I'm suffering from insomnia and a headache that could hurts so bad. I feel horrible inside out .

Random updates bout me

2010-08-31T00:38:00.002+08:00

Congratulation to me ! My phone has just arrived back from the hospital (: I miss my shiny white phone and the broken giraffe key chain . I am longing for a new phone ! Maybe if i got straight A's i'd get one . Mom said she would buy me a BlackBerry if i got straight A's . Hehehe .

So my brother is going to register for his marriage thingy next Wednesday . I feel kinda excited :D
Im going to have sister-in-laws and more and more relatived and i am finally going to have a ''kampung(hometown)(after all these years of not having one . I think kampungs are awesome (:
I cant wait to put on my new dress that i finally bought last Saturday, i'm going to post the pictures of it , someday .

Next week is going to be really busy ! Minda Ceria's English marathon would begin and it's gonna be really fun :D If i could , maybe i'd find a way to post some pictures . Sir said every extra class we are allowed to bring snacks and he would bring a carpet and he would like have a mini picnic during break (: Sir is such a cool guy .

I went to Jasmine's open house yesterday , it was fun especially to have Jasmine's relatives from London around . Adoloscence from the age of 3-10 running around Jasmine's room and they are just so cute . I adore their british accent , it's just so amazing . I feel like an orang asli being amaze with a radio . HAHAHA .

This Friday , CF will be having Sister's day ! Finally ! I'm defintely looking forward for it . I need something to cheer me up (: Hehehe . I hope they don't take revenge by feeding us chillie or anyting like that .

It's a wonderul thing to look ahead .

In a way

2010-08-26T15:10:00.001+08:00

Credits : Deviant Art

Every pace she takes , it hurts ,

The sound of foot step shuffling ,

Stepping behind the shadow ,

Illuminating as thoughs its a beautiful meadow .

Every breath she takes , it burns ,

Gasping as she breathes ,

Secretly , she wished for a secret dream ,

To sleep in a long sweet dream .

Every glimpse she takes , it blinds ,

She didn't believe the signs ,

Believing she's light

When he cut , she shall shine .

She sat beneath the sky ,

With her fingers pressed between the grass ,

She kissed the past ,

Wondering if is this strong .

Taylor Swift - White Horse

2010-08-22T20:56:00.007+08:00

Just because i forgive you ,

It doesn't mean you're right .

thanks for the memories .

Head over heels

2010-08-21T20:04:00.002+08:00

Hello , everybody :D

How's your weekend going on ?
If you ask me , its same old same old .
I woke up at 9.30 am , the funny thing was i wasn't exhausted from the 8-12 tuition last night .
FYI , i had the scariest and weirdest dream ever D:

I dreamnt that i was getting married ! HAHAHAHA

I DON'T WANT TO GET MARRIED WHEN I'M 15 !

I was getting married to this random guy which is kinda old ,maybe cause my dream is talking about my future but i don't know . Anyways , i dreamnt that i was wearing the pearl white wedding gown , fancy white gloves , my hair tied in a bun (i'm never going to tie my hair in a bun for a long time ) , with the white veil over my head . OKAY .I think i was at the random fella's house , and then we were getting married , and guess what ? I ran away from the wedding ceremony and i kept running and running until i dropped my wedding veil .Then i started sobbing and i kept on saying 'I don't want to marry someone i don't love'. WTF LAH -,- and then i woke up , and i forgot about this dream until i was walking to the book store from Martin .

Dreams are weird . Weird! I TELL YOU .

Anyways , during tuition . I had this funny conversation with Viviene and Jessie ; or at least i think its funny . It was like this-

OH YA , before i forgot , i found out the fella that prank called me from the Australian Embassy.
It was Harrish , from Martin . He is incredibly annoying , funny and nice at the same time .
When we were buying buns , he nearly tripped and i asked him why he din't fall down and he was like " I would fall if you were standing in front of me ". HAHAHA . Incredibly cheesy (:

Okay , back to the conversation . We were talking about Mr Kung's son. (Mr Kung is our math teacher ) Mr Kung is super nice and funny however Mr Kung son whose name is Soon Heng is super anti-social and he has that "I-AM-GOING-TO-KILL-YOU" look . All . The . Time .
Btw , he sat beside when were standard four and i had a crush on him for like two years . LOL .

Jessie : So does he ever talk to you ?

Me : Yeah.

Viviene : Like how often , once every ten years ? LOL

Me : No lah -,- , i talk a lot in class , so i annoy him pretty often and he DO laughs and smile.

Viviene : Does he know you like him ?

Me : I think so . For some UNKNOWN reason , everyone knows that i like him ):

Viviene : What unknown reason! Maybe it cause it's so OBVIOUS . HAHAHAH .

I can't help but admit so (:
Funny , i fall head over heels for weird guys .

Sun shine

2010-08-18T16:30:00.004+08:00

The walls stopped colliding against my angst , the floors stopped tumbling on my tears , the weight is lifting . For once , the sun shone like the stars at night, glowing with that magical halo of light . - I'm free .

Doodles

2010-08-17T14:14:00.003+08:00

I'm so happy today ! I'm in a super good mood , which kinda sorta unusual for me .

Anyways , my school had the book fair thingy , and they had a 10% discount :D
I don't know why am i so happy with a 10% discount but i guess i'm just happy . HAHA .
I bought 3 types of PMR model questions for 15 ringgit when the normal price is 18 ringgit

Before i forget ,

"Selamat Hari Puasa!" to all muslims out there :D
Happy Fasting !

Yeoh Song Lin tried fasting for a few days , but he puasa with water lar . and he buka puasa at 5pm and his mother called him crazy . Haha . I like Song Lin , funny person .

Speaking of buka puasa , i want to eat buka puasa food so badly ):
I want to eat lemang , roti john , and ketupat :D
But i guess i'll have to wait for someone to bring me there which is most likely not going to happen :/

My hair dryer is very sick , it keeps on coughing .
It makes weird sounds whenever i turn it out , i feel like it's gonna blow up or something.
Worse come to worse , it might blow up my hand ! D:

So i'll just have to wait for Mommy to notice the cacat-ness of the hairdryer so that she would buy a new one :D

Trials exam are starting tomorrow , and i don't feel a thing eh .
It's sort of like an immune feeling .
Immunity to exams ~ !
Oh well , whatever .

"Good luck everyone who is going to sit for their trials exam !"

BooksAreLove

2010-08-15T22:32:00.002+08:00

Thanks for the memories

The Gift

I'm so happy today ! I bought three new books for RM 36.50 !
If i bought a Cecilia Ahern novel , it'll cost me RM 39.90 .
Such a rip off !
Plus , two of them are by Cecilia Ahern . Plus plus , it's hardcover !

Also , i bought another book for 3 Ringgit !

My secret ?
The guy who owns the shop happens to be my relative !

HAHAHA , joking (:
I bought it from a book store at Ampcop Mall .
My brother said there 's a vintage market every Sunday morning.
I want to go so badly !
I love vintage :D

The rain

2010-08-14T23:33:00.002+08:00

The smell of grass linger upon me as i lay beneath a myriad of glittering stars . Searching for your presence beside me , the vivid memories slowly slipping between my fingers . Soon later , i watch as stars stop sparkling , losing it's luscious glow while the clouds charged into the scene . Bullets of raindrop falling from the sky , painting the sky with its sorrow . I lay there staring into space , feeling absolutely nothing but the rain . It's as though i'm numb , i'm living without my senses . I am numb .

Friends

2010-08-13T16:48:00.003+08:00

Shuet Ling & me (:
One of the wonderful woman who really stood by me through thick and thin
She's a real friend ! . . . unlike some people .

We did this in class , HAHA .
I always wanted a collage like this , and i finally have it !

Yesterday

2010-08-12T14:20:00.002+08:00

Yesterday , i was pretty naive enough to believe that a dude from the Australian Embassy called me. It's quite funny when i thought about it though . The guy speaks with a super strong accent.

Guy : Hello , is this Ginny ?

Me : Yes ?

Guy : Hello , i' m calling from the Australian Embassy to inform you that your visa has expired...

Me : Huh ? Excuse me ?

Guy : Yes , your visa has expired .... ( then i have no idea what bullshit he started talking )

Me : I think this is the wrong number you 're calling

Guy : Uh , you are Ginny , right ? ( -,- , I'm not the only Ginny in the world , Ginny isn't my real name anyway)

Me : What's my real name ?

Guy : Ginny Ng...... (HAHAHA , he doesn 't know my real name )

After that i passed my phone to my brother and the guy hang up .

After a while , i realized that the number is 012-xxxxxxxx . In conclusion , he isn 't from the Australian Embassy . And it was a prank call -_________-
I really really wanted to call the guy back and give him a piece of my mind but Wei Wern stopped me from doing so ):

She said "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! You 'll get stalked and killed !"

I sorta suspect he's my buddy but i wouldn't say who (:
Oh well , fun playing with you . Not my phone bills after all :P

Mad Girl's Love Song

2010-08-10T14:31:00.002+08:00

My current all-time favourite (:

"I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead;
I lift my lids and all is born again.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

The stars go waltzing out in blue and red,
And arbitrary blackness gallops in:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.

I dreamed that you bewitched me into bed
And sung me moon-struck, kissed me quite insane.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

God topples from the sky, hell's fires fade:
Exit seraphim and Satan's men:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.

I fancied you'd return the way you said,
But I grow old and I forget your name.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

I should have loved a thunderbird instead;
At least when spring comes they roar back again.
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)" -Sylvia Plath

Dear Monday

2010-08-09T23:46:00.003+08:00

I don't like Mondays at all :/ especially today
I dislike the fact that i have to wake up at 5.45 am
I dislike the fact that there 's nothing productive to do on Mondays
I dislike the fact that it's so hot because A-C class doesn't have electricity ( I think Pn . Radiah forgotten to pay the bills :/)
I dislike the fact that i wasted the entire morning doing nothing

Oh well , goodbye Monday !

Hello , Tuesday ! :D

But it 's not getting better , i swear .

[I'm dragging my body along the floor , hoping maybe then i'd move on as my body moves along time . Tasting dirt on my tongue which feels like sandpaper. I'm tired of swalloing my sorrows and hoping that it'd come out the other way around when i knew it never would nor could.Redeeming my fears into reality .It's no longer a dream , a will , nor a longing . It's the undeniable truth.]

It's a saturday (:

2010-08-07T14:52:00.002+08:00

I know you know it.
I'm sophisticated (:

Have a wonderful weekend , people !

''Happy Saturday ! "

-Smile to a stranger , and it 'll make their day .

StripesIKnowYouLoveIt

2010-08-06T13:23:00.002+08:00

We had stripes day yesterday ! We 're going to make it a monthly thing (:
I miss them already !

Je'taime Shuet Ling !! :D HAHA
She 's weird and funny , she cuts her own hair when she doesn 't like it .

"Happy Friday , everybody !"

8Letters3WordsSayItI'mYours

2010-08-05T14:57:00.003+08:00

" Forgive ,
Forget ,
Move on . "